How many of us have come across this famous quote about fear: use fear for success or say yes to what scares you! don't get me wrong guys it is true and it works. Feeling inadequate in a situation is a clear indicator that you can overcome it. But I really want to dig deeper and uncover this side of fear that is not recognized as such. The last months of 2018 have been eye opening for me in a sense where I got answers to questions I had since I was a teenage girl! Don't worry won't go over those questions, but I discovered this: in a place of fear, love is non-existent. Friend, fear is not the typically uneasiness in your stomach you feel when you want to change your life, your job, or you want to build an empire or change the world. It is more than that. In fact, it is like this malignant tumor that creeps in the deepest places of your soul contaminates every part of your inside slowly and silently until you manifest the symptoms. This side of fear creates a greater void, a feeling of going through the motion, and most importantly the absolute need to prove the world something. The very need to be seen and recognized, but never actually being able to do it... Do you feel misunderstood most of the time? Do you feel like you have no passion or don't really have a particular goal in life. Do you feel like people always render you bad for all the good you do to them. Do you know really what it means to have joy? are you happy? like really? Do feel like you always need to do extra or go the extra mile for you entourage so that they can see your good heart or good intentions? Are you ok when you are not picked where you thought you were supposed? Do you feel the need to explain yourself for every decisions you make? Do you feel unmotivated most of the time? Do you feel you think you deserve to be loved and cared for even though you have not experienced love or care like others might have experienced? The list goes longer and deeper, but if you feel like any of those things mentioned before it is called fear not insecurities. It is called lack of love. Fear is the complete opposite of love. Love is full and love lives, love is sufficient and keeps on being full and satisfied even when there is a punch. In the place of fear, love provides an overwhelming peace and power... It gives rest in who we are and what we are not. Fear will convince you about what you do not do, and points out what you are not: acceptable. Love on the contrary says this: YOU ARE ENOUGH and ACCEPTED rest! stop doing and start being. For someone who is sitting there like me asking and thinking, please know that God has made you powerful, so powerful that you can squash anything. Get rid of fear, you are enough, treat yourself with gentleness... If you call upon his name he will answer you and show you who you really are. Try... it is worth the try.
18.There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear, because fear involves punishment. The one who fears has not been perfected in love. 19.We love because He first loved us. (1 Jean 4: 18-19)
6. For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7.For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power, love, and self-control. (2 Timothy:1:6-7)
What I am wearing
Sweater: Walmart (in the guys section)
Jeans: Gift from mom (any blue jeans of choice)
Boots: Payless (sold out, similar here)